Yes I am still alive!! And yes God and I are still very much on a journey together.
It’s touching that people noticed I was ‘quiet’ – possibly because me being quiet is very out of character lol!!
To say that life has been crazy busy is an understatement. Good busy, but crazy non the less!! Far to crazy to catch a moment to write.
Don’t get me wrong though … It has been an incredible few weeks of prayer, fellowship, exercise, discipleship, weddings, an overseas event, homeschooling, foster children, family, birthdays, life.
God has been in every square inch of it – down loading, refining, testing, reproofing, teaching, loving, strengthening, challenging and growing me. He has taught me that prayer is vital. That having answers isn’t always the key in tough situations, but listening to His prompting is. Going where He tells me to has been an essential part of the journey. And taking Kingdom with me has meant for many wow moments with Him.
He is currently working on our patient endurance and trusting Him no matter what life holds. I believe all I need is Him, and all I want to desire is Him. That means choosing to put down the flesh and take hold of The Spirit. It really is a daily, sometimes hourly, decision to make. To be fair, I wish death to self was a little easier … Just saying!!
I was told once that if in water and you don’t know which way is up, you blow bubbles and follow them … And if its snow you are stuck in and you are not sure which way is up, you spit and dig the opposite way to the direction the spit goes. So, just wondering, when you feel like you are in the middle of no where and can’t see anything … Which way do you walk??
I wish God was in the habit of utilising signs posts! It would make this whole direction thing way easier to grasp. I get He says the way is narrow, but seriously, I think He forgot to mention narrow and INVISIBLE!!!!!
Not complaining! This journey is amazing. But not quite knowing what the next step is, for a planner, is very difficult and a big death to self. It’s a putting down the knowing, the planning, the control. It’s taking a deep breath whilst quietly whispering “Yes God you are in control!” This is not easy, but my trust is growing deeper with every breath. And my love for Him is growing as I hand Him the wheel and He shows me just how wonderful He is when He has my full surrender!!
As we wait and hold, He steadies us for the next chunk of the picture. I am sure if He gave it to me prematurely, before more growth has taken place, then I wouldn’t be sitting and holding, I would be running for the hills. I know the next step won’t be easy. My spirit senses the magnitude of it will take preparation in Him. I love that He knows the plans that lie ahead. He smiles at me as I write this, as He knows just what it takes for me to gaze into His eyes and say yes without even knowing what I am saying yes to.
It’s time to prepare the fields for rain. The flood gates are about to open. The tent pegs ever widening. The faith ever deepening.
He hasn’t said to build an ark, but to prepare heart, family and home for what’s about to take place … Watch this space!! 😉